Not Shy

May 2, 2026

Hi im stella, Welcome to my Blog!

ice cream cone in front of a karaoke sign

My inspiration for starting this blog includes:

full flower moon through trees full flower moon over a NYC street

Last night, I was on the phone with my friend Sam when I spotted the moon. The full Flower moon, on the first of May. It felt very special — the camera doesn't do it justice. She stepped outside to see it but it wasn't visible where she was. When I interrupted her to make her look at my pictures of the moon, she was talking about how people feel surveilled now, and it keeps them from being truly intimate.

person in teal scrubs walking past a motorcycle and Tesla
crosswalk from above with one foot visible and earphones on the ground

Gisèle Pelicot's book — fucking devastating. But she is Steadfast, it's inspiring.

blurry stairwell looking down, feet visible
sitting on a bookstore floor reading Gisèle Pelicot's book

In honor of spring, here's a short story from last April that I never finished.

Late Spring

When celestial engineers seized control of the earth's axis, interrupting the southern hemisphere's return from winter, it was lauded by leaders as a great decision. They froze the earth's spin a perfect distance from the sun, suspending the northern half of the globe in a ripe, eternal spring. Young people bathed in the soft sun and cool wind, swimmers luxuriated in blue water under a clear sky. Humans below the equator were not informed — they would wake blearily and pull back the curtains to check for the first sunny day of the year. It never came.

My colleagues and I felt alien to the engineers and their methods — we were not "technical", in a way that mattered to people that matter — we had no understanding of the construction or birth of this new reality, but we welcomed it. Who doesn't love the spring. I woke on the 62nd of New Spring (use of the Gregorian calendar was discontinued) and gathered my things for a trip to the lake. My wife, asleep, would not be coming with me this morning — she began experiencing blistering headaches around the twentieth or thirtieth day of New Spring and has been spending a lot of time in bed. Probably allergies. I passed through the front threshold of my house, left ajar since Sunday night. My neighbors are strewn across their roofs and front lawns, eating fruit and sleeping in the sun. Every window and door of every house is flung open. Garbage cans up and down the street are overflowing with food scraps and empty wine bottles — maintenance workers are hard to come by these days, and custodial drone pickups are an unfinished solution with an irregular schedule. I retrieve a pair of sunglasses from my car, which has been stationary in the driveway since the day gas stations were closed. All non-renewable energy sources were repossessed to power the geopause. I hesitate to take out my bicycle — they're worth more than cars nowadays, and I don't want to attract undue attention.

Pretty mid, huh? But maybe I'll flesh it out one day.

Thanks for reading the intro post — more to come, hopefully more interesting and less personal.
Happy Spring!